Love Confession Rude Email bosn88, Female, 35, USA, Orlando I was in a long distance relationship with this guy who I met online. The first month was fine. But then I started sensing something wrong. I went back online to check if he still had his profile. I found that he was still logging in and responding to girls. As I was in a bad relationship before, I decided not to see him in the next meeting. But then he said, "boys like seeing girls" and that it was only entertainment and I needed to trust him. So I did. But two weeks later he sent me an email saying, "may be we should talk only once a week". I was very upset. When I tried to talk he said, "I was taking things way too seriously." Then the following day he broke up with me in an email. I asked him reasons and he gave me some. But again the following day he made up and acted as if nothing happened. But I changed my behavior to being more formal. Then he said he did not want to lose me and we should go back to being like we were 2 weeks ago. I was in love and so agreed. But again after 2 weeks i felt something wrong again. So i told him that he did not have to come see me if he did not want to (as we were planning to meet in december). Then he changed, he became this very nice person, calling everyday being nice. When i told him that he has changed and was very nice to me. He said, "he wanted to do that and that he like me" Then the day came when we met. Though we were together i felt a lot of distance. The very first day he said he wanted space!! I realized that he was talking over the phone when he demanded his space. As he was still checking his profile i assumed that he was talking to some girl. That hurt me a lot. And on the last day he was talking to someone which by chance i happened to overhear and i "understood" it as he was going to see this girl! I could not take it anymore and i started crying. He was angry. But i could not give him any reason because it was based on intution and assumption. We went back home and the next two days were good. But on jan 1 he emailed me to break up. I asked him if he could let go of my crying and rethink. He said no. We did not talk for 2 weeks. Then i got uneasy and emailed him. Waited for a week but no reply. Then i called him emailed him again with a pretense to need help. He did not answer my calls (called 3 times) but emailed me and said he could not help me and not to contact me anymore as he was in a committed relationship with someone else. But he did return me $500 which i spent on the december trip. learning that he was with someone else, I got furious and emailed him very rudely. I balmed him for giving me pain, i told him he used me to sleep with him, i told him that his intensions were not right from the very beginning...i was rude. but i also said that deep in my heart i knew he was loving, caring, and sincere and wished him good luck. A week later I felt very bad of being rude to him and blaming him for all my pains. I sent him an email apologizing for the same. But he blocked my email and cell phone #. So I sent him email using my other email address. God, I am not a stalker. I really liked this guy. I understand that I should not have been rude and blamed him for my pain. Please forgive me for all my mistakes. I know that i might have done something terribly wrong for this relationship to end like this. I beg you for your forgivness and also i beg my ex for his forgiveness. I want him to know that i am not a stalker and be assured that i will never try to contact him again. Please god and my ex forgive me... Number Confessions(1) Comments(1) Send Comment Comments By Other Users andy11, Male, 29, Germany, Hessen 10-5-2009 Fairenough, but why are you so depressed? I mean don't you see; the fact is he did sort of used you in the start and later when he came across someone else, he started avoiding you. This he should have made clear to you at that very instant, rather the worse part is he became good and made you come to meet him and whatever! He should know that girls are emoitonal but your fault is for being too much emotional in all this situation which further destroyed your relationship. Don't worry he'd have no problems. If he has any, he will contact you forsure. But get over it, and start a new life... Back To Last Page