Love Confession

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ua4oe02cb, Female, 23, USA, Atlanta

I've been dating my boyfriend for a year and a half now. He is wonderful. We do, however, have alot of differences. Really big differences. We have worked through them all this time. But when I moved several hours away it got difficult. I didn't get to see him that often. I started to feel like it wouldn't work.

This guy at work started taking an interest in me. He is 20 years older than me, though you wouldn't believe it if you saw him.

We started being friends. The first time we actually hung out I ended up staying over at his place. We didn't have sex but we made out. At the time it felt good. It felt great to be in someones arms, especially since I don't get to do that with my boyfriend anymore.

But the next day I started to feel bad. I decided I didn't like that guy physically anyway because of his very vocal and weird sexual nature. I told him I just wanted to be friends.

I reconciled things with my boyfriend. I realized that I loved him so much! I guess it took me almost losing him to realize that. My boyfriend decided to move where I am so we can be together.

But when I told that guy that me and my boyfriend got back together he began to rant about how I am a DRAMA filled person. He thinks I am staying with my boyfriend out of pity. And he thinks my boyfriend moving up here is a terrible idea because he says I will just break up with him later on down the road.

He made me feel bad. The way he was talking to me. It just hurt. I thought he was my friend.

What he said is definitely not true. I really do love my boyfriend and I would love to marry him right now, but that will come in time.

Anyway, I just kind of hate my life. I know that sounds crazy being that I havea wonderful boyfriend and love him. But with the drama of that guy and all my previous relationships... I feel like I am tainted. I just happen to draw all the crazies with the exception of my current boyfriend.

I don't think I like myself. I tend to either screw things up badly or at least mess them up enough to hurt me and the other people involved.

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