Confession scared chitless dima, Female, 21, Other Asian countries, tripoli i am sooo scared, my heart is beating fast i have a math exam, and the guy that i liked moved 2 another country i have no idea what im feeling im not only scared im sad, i hate everything, i feel guilty for i dont know what reason, i feel like im a looser my parents want me 2 be a pharmacist ever since i was a little kid they use 2 tell me : "u can be who ever i wanna be" and then when it was finaly time 2 decide what i wanna do with my life they said : " u can be whoever u wanna be BUT we really think u should be a pharmacist that way u can have the familys buisness" i dont hate scientific areas, and i know that im usually the person who is thirsty for knowledge but i love art, and i cant imagine myself in one place im " crazyy" if u read the story "veronica decides 2 die" u know what im talking about my class is like the "honor class" i feel so stupid in it, evryone has straight A's and we're in a really tough school , i have C's and yet all the teacher think that im really smart honestly i hate everyone 4 telling me that im smart bcaus im not, look at my grades they really suck, last year i was failing! i cant sleep, i feel just like i felt when i was a kid and didnt do my homework i use 2 get up at 4 am and do it, that eventually became a habit but 2day IS SATURDAY! i dont have school tomorow ok this really didnt help at all i still feel bad Number Confessions(2) Comments(1) Send Comment Comments By Other Users xtynamuzik, Female, 29, Philippines, Pasig City 23-11-2007 Oh my gosh, "Veronica decides to die" is exactly what I'm reading right now. Know what, I've been through the same as you did. Only difference is I followed what I really wanted. When I was about to step in to college, my parents originally wanted me to pursue optometry. because they wanted me to continue my father's work (as an optometrist) and eventually put up our own eye clinic. But, I still pursue what i wanted, I finished Fine Arts. You should tell them what you really want. Because you're the one who has to decide for yourself. Your choice of career is what you'll forever do with your life. You don't want to be stuck into doing something you don't really like for all your life, do you? just follow your heart! Back To Last Page